My difficulty with art was never that I didn’t enjoy it, I enjoy it immensely. My difficulty with art comes from a deep issue with patience and perfection. Nothing is ever good enough, fast enough.
I think this is a general issue we have as a society. We all want to be ‘good’, ‘amazing’, ‘best’. No one wants to take their time and be mediocre. We are taught in school to be exactly NOT this.
This year one of my resolutions was to lean myself more into the creativity I know I’ve always had but had been stuffing away to focus on more prioritized things like my degree and good grades. In high school, I let my creativity shine in many ways- art and writing mostly- however once university hit it all seemed to take a backseat because it never really ‘accomplished’ anything. For Christmas my best friend gave me Elizabeth Gilbert’s (one of my favourite authors by the way) BIG MAGIC. Creativity is not something to be snubbed as last on a list of things to do. It doesn’t even belong on the list of things to do. It is THE thing to do.
I’ve been using this affirmation “Today, Create something even if it sucks.” Much of the time what stops me from creating is the idea that someone will say ‘WOW, why did you even attempt that, it SUCKS.’ This is some little audio track that plays in my head until I avoid the thing I actually wanted to bring into the world. This goes for art, writing, yoga, meditation and even posting on social media.
Well, I have an art space. And what I create in it may not be AMAZING- but I have a space for it and it is there that it is allowed to exist with no judgement. It is there that clutter lives on canvas and paper but not in my mind. I encourage you to make a space to create. A quiet, lonely corner with nothing in it brought to life by your creations. A writing station. An art space. A space for your photos. A space for your books. A place for you to dwell in creation for 10, 20 maybe 30 minutes a day, everyday- even if you think it sucks.